I failed.

Okay I know this picture is a lil scary oops. This is what we called unique, priceless expression ;P

It had been a pretty long hectic month for me, like finally it's 30th of September.

I still could picture the last fuckedup month was in April.

In fact, if you are one of my loyal blog reader / twitter followers, my life'd been pretty pretty good in the past few months, where I'm so glad & thankful to every humans & the precious moments (:

Unfortunately, September doesn't seem to love me much.

There were so many complications where I nearly gave up on everything ; so helpless, so tiring.

Being chucked in an environment when I'm all alone, indeed freaking vulnerable to all circumstances.

I constantly whisper from within that 'tomorrow' will be a better day, but yet it never comes.

To be honest, I failed to be a better human in this month, lol?

In other words, I hate myself being in such way, I felt so sorry to myself

I'm sorry for engaging myself in negativity , which I usually don't do that obviously.

I'm sorry for callingsomeoneIdislikeabitch. I'm sorry. My very first time lol?

I'm sorry for not being able to hold my temper recently geez.

I'm sorry for being impatient at times.

I'm sorry for getting mad at someone & whatever they do annoys me. HAHAHA not anymore, I hope ;)

I'm sorry for blaming lecturers because their lessonsaresodamnuseless oops.

Lastly, I'm sorry for swearing and cursing a little too often, teehee


We all have our angels and demons deep within, so choose very wisely (:

From now on, I will. *pinky promise*

At the breaking point, I realized, I've no one to completely rely on.

No more phone calls with the bestie and advises from her.

No more people to feel like how I do and listen to whatever shits I complain.

I've to be my own heroin.

Still, I've them.

& I realized sleeping had been my wisest choice ever. Living for 17+ years, I know myself well.

I sleep when I'm under stress. I sleep when I'm hurt. I sleep when I'm emotional. I sleep when I don't know what to do.

FYI, LEE MIN HO did the same thing too ! HAHAHA.

Sleeping with them (BoooKei) is the best ♥

Yet, due to the stress recently I've to listen to Yiruma's piano songs to have my beauty sleep (:

I'm a happy human now because my Babu Jaclyn Tan played some songs & sent it to me yeay! Wedding Dress, Moonlight Sonata FTW!

Life's too short to waste time hating anyone , to be mad at annoying people.

Difficult humans are to test our tolerance, no?

I believe that I can conquer all these shits and take a leap of faith,

it will work in my way eventually.

Besides, I'm an October baby, which means I'll be eighteeen very sooooooooon yeay!

I sincerely hope that I can have a HAPPY birthday even though my lovelies are 321656212 miles away from me.

Mid sem test is next week though. Somehow I feel a whole lot refreshed after blogging about this phewwwwww. So the time wasted is worth it I guess.

MissVincci is back :')

If you care about what other people think, you will always be their prisoner.

It's 30th of September today. It was my worst day ever 2 years ago. It's over now :')

Bye September. Thanks for making me a stronger person.
Happy October! Please be nice to me alrights :)

MEHHHH DOREEN D:

As you know, I'm freaking freaking exhausted now and I'vemyassignmenttodofml
However, it's my baby's birthday, I'm sparing some of my time to blog a simple one to wish her (: *sincere look*

Picture taken just now. 3/4 of the class celebrated her birthday & on nom nom-ed steamboat. Sweating like nobody business obviously.

Dear dear dear Doreen, you know you must be real special to be up at this space (MY BLOG) lololo. So far this year I did this to my guardian angel ONLY. *wink wink*

You're officially EIGHTEEN now, so

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

ALL THE BEST IN LIFE (:

I LOVE YOU.

MUACKX.

I've only know her for 1 month+ but it feels like we've known each other for a lifetime.

FYI, the sociable girl has a really really kind soul, she helps everyone, which always put herself in troubles, bleh.

Anyway, I thank her a million times because so far she did a lot a lot for me :')

A very very good friend indeed a.k.a my "boyfie".

Guess she's the one who knows me best in the whole Kuching.

She drives me around to have my lunch/ dinner ;

She knows I love shopping so she brought me to different shopping places in Kuching, like seriously :O

She brings her water daily for me to drink HAHAHA ;

She lend her jacket to me if I feel cold in class ;

She likes to laugh at my mandarin accent ._. Godierawr ;

She fetched me from the airport all way even though she'll be late for class like 1 damn hour ;

She loves to treat me, everyone, which I hate this part the most actually. LIKE LA YOU VERY RICH. HMPH.

Sometimes she even break into my dorm & wake me up early in the morning gah ;
We share our best friends always. I tell her about my bestie - LemonQian & BlueeGal's stories whereas she tells me hers.

Without her, I couldn't even meet him yesterday :')

Retarded face, because.I.can :D

not forgetting that she's the only one who have to bare with my tears 24/7, especially last week, where if you place me on top of a building, I'll seriously jump down. #justsaying.

I felt really really sorry to other humans in the gang too, just wanna say nobody will ever left aside (:

I've some errrr. troublesome problems which leads to emotional breakdown last week and so... she's occupied by me most of the time. HEEHEEE I'M SORRY ALRIGHT?. *blush*

In other words, she'll always be with me, which I truly appreciate it, I'm not #foreveralone anymore T.T

Okay I know I rely on her a bit too much teehee .__.

I don't know what to say except THANKYOU, THANKYOU & THANKYOU :')

I know you love me very very much hohoho, because I love her too okay :P

Lastly, saya suka hamnida again (: YouknowwhatImeant.

Reminder : Do not keep your problems to yourself, you're not superwoman, you've us, you've ME (:

*hugs and kisses*

P.S : I know they gave you birthday kiss but not me, so sorry my kiss is to precious to be given away HAHAHA. oops.

With love,
Vincci.

We run the world! :DD 09.26

Yes why am I here again, because blogging mode is ON, so...

#TeetotheHee

Of course, I've my very own purpose too. It's our buddy day :')

BUDDY DAY - 26th of September every year which 3 girls on Earth -LemonQian , Bluee Gal & Smiling Eyes celebrate their friendship 'anniversary' and confess their love, bleh :P

And obviously, I miss them, so X 926 times much.

It had been a while since we hang out together, like really long.

Just want to tell you girls that :

although I make new friends around,

although we hardly talk to each other and laugh like crazy women anymore,

although we are all busy with our own life journeys,

somehow our hearts would not drift apart,

one thing for sure that no one EVER replace you both in my heart ♥

whenever, where ever we meet, we will still be having our girls talk like there's no tomorrow,

right right right?

P.S : I bet they miss my so cute & pretty face lots bleh .

I bought these during the Malacca outing with m2 classmates. They're actually paired, they've their own 'siblings'. OkayI'mbeinglame

These are just representatives for 3 of us, realizing that we didn't take any pictures lately.

SO SO SAD. Remember we're all cam-whore partners? :')

xoxo

♥

Guess the girls will kill me if I add him in this post as well.

Anyways, look who I meet up with in Kuching! T.T

Lets put in this in a nicer way, he fly here to see me yeay :) (: *blush*
And yeah same goes to him. We didn't meet up for like seriously so damn long,
but the sister-brother bond is still there wheeeeeee.

He is SNSD's crazy-big-fans now.
I'm so gonna invade Korea SM Entertainment with him one day. Yes we will lol.

Had a great great great day! Thanks to my my one-and-only-so-called-brother ;)

xoxo again. You'll miss me!

There are so many things can make you happy. Don't focus too much on things that make you sad.

Love,

Vincci.

Turning opposition into drive (:

我跟自己说好，要活得真实，不管别人怎么看我，就算全世界否定我，我还有我自己相信我。

我跟自己说好，要过的快乐，无需去想是否有人在乎我，一个人也可以很精彩。

我跟自己说好，悲伤时可以哭的很狼狈，很狼狈，眼泪流干后，要抬起头笑得很漂亮，很漂亮。

Credits to Elise Wen's facebook (:

:)

:3

:O
Sorry I've no time to blog a mandarin post recently. Yes, FYI it takes me a very very long time geez.

Ola!

Thank God X 336741274 times life had been so much better in these two days.

Less fucked up moments, less tears, less emo hour :')

Thankyouverymuchtomyself because I procrastinate my blog posts as well. I've two drafts on going now, like finally.
Smurf you readers, smurf you babu & m2 classmates, smurf you my BFF Lemon & Bluee, smurf you Klang usual gang/ friends, smurf you current classmates as well, smurf every single humans who treated me right.
Smurf you too, but you changed.
Yes I've alot to share in my space right here :3

Somehow Miss Vincci's mid semester test is the upcoming week ohfml.

Like usual, preparations at the eleventh hour and no time to blog geez.

Seriously I'm so getting used to my style after 17 years of living *blush*
Till then, more updates after the week ;)
15 mins over! Gotta tuned on my NERD MODE ohkthxbai.

Tia, my favourite girl *hugs*

Had second class phototaking session today , but I guess I won't have the time to blog about it rawr.


Smurfily xoxo,
Vincci

It gets better, I hope.

I'm tired of words ; tired of carefully calculating each fragment.
I've exhausted myself with all these thoughts.
I'm overwhelmed with all the negativity weighing me down these days.
Enough with all 123456789 problems. I don't wanna list them one by one.
Keep coming if you think I'm not frustrated enough,
Family, Friendship, Relationship, or whatever ship ruining all the way, fuckit, fuckyou,fuckmylife.

Just stop the drama and dissolve.
I want to be weightless but I don't know if floating away is going to be enough.
I wouldn't blame life because it had been pretty good for the past few months, like really good. :')
I knew, it's about time for some socalledfuckingmoments to happen.

Everything just doesn't seem right in this month.
It had been a really long time since I cried this hard, ever felt so helpless till I couldn't even control my tears.
Realizing that no matter how many friends I have, I still have to face & deal with all these alone. I must stay strong.
I have to.

Thanks a million to all my true friends all these whiles, you know who you are (:
I miss all of you, so much , where no matter how many problems I have you guys will not be the reasons ;
I miss those times :
Yes, there's always a reason to be grateful, no matter how fucked up it is.
I once was distraught because I had no shoes, until I met a man who had no feet - Unknown.


Go on and try to tear me down,
I'll be rising from the ground,like a skyscraper.
Keep the faith, I hope.

We conquered the bitch! oops, B.E.A.C.H.

Greetings everyone ;D

I miss my blog, my readers as well, xoxo.

Oh well oh well,
I know you miss looking at my super-awesome-pictures too. *blush* #justsaying.
Anyway, here's a postponed blog post for my class outing few weeks ago :O
Of course, we had fun! Started to get together literally since we're seemingly aliens to each other from the first week, especially yours truly from Selangor.
*sits at the corner and draw circles*
Blaaaa skip the craps & Tadaaaaa!

SPOT ME SPOT ME ! ; Picture taken & edited by : Michelle Liew

Do spare some time to read her awesome blog post too - [Click Here] because it helps me to introduce all the new humans, which I'm too lazy to do that. Bleh :P
Yeay for us who owns a blog! At least I'm not #foreveralone, teehee.

'The fish swims'

A sociable girl who loves to smile & laugh, like I do . Guess we're quite alike too because she likes photography, reading, blogging, dancing & blaaa. Anyways, don't underestimate her because she's a professional in TaeKwanDo. *whisper : Girls power!*
Ohya, she doesn't play guitar, great poser indeed geez.
Although she might not hang out with us often, but still we love her much! Doink :3
*hugs and kisses ♥ *

P.S : This is for you Michelle, since you're kind enough to introduce everyone of us one by one! We laughed out really loud reading that, you know why ;)

Back to topic!

*peace* We're all very X 1234 times excited and off we head to Permai Beach!
He isn't supposed to be in this picture initially, rawr.
Still, a little frowned since our lovely class rep, Tia couldn't make it :(

Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee, woke up at 5.30 in the morning & dolled up a little.
So-sleepy-but-have-to-smile-face :3

Loving the beach! Small kids running around, tsk tsk, bleh :p

The dudes & Michelle are so excited, teehee.
Picture credited to Christopher Wong :)

See, all the humans above are my classmates. We rock the beach!

A-little-perverted-pose. FYI, they're refilling their water gun hohohoho.

Say Hello to Sylvia, the funny one! The sun is blazing its 'hotness' upon us :'(

Say Hi to Elise too! My-all-time-so-cute-tiny-little-soul mate.

The weather is crazy. Wedon'tgiveadamn since it's a class outing &
so, we change our outfits and play around like nobody business.
I GOT TANNED T____T Just got a little fairer previously and now...... #FML

Look at the two cute humans, all of us are having a good time yeah!


Mr. & Mrs.Cow playing like a small kiddo, oopsie, I mean Elise & Chung!

Love this shot the most! Thankyou my lil idol! Like seriously, how I wished to have two Vinccis so I can take nice pictures of myself besides cam-whoring :3

Still, I'm having a good time taking cool photos #likeaboss ,
although I'm not in the photographing team *sobs*

Take 1.

Take 2.

Take 3.

We're busy catching small fishes and set them free. It's challenging though.

Dugun dugun! And obviously I failed -.-
Fishy are faster than miss fatty me.

I can haz very cool nails. Not manicure! *flips hair*

Failed. Guess I'm starting to feel tired already geez.

Saw Bruno Mars? :O

Chung, my jimui a.k.a little idol! His singing is 123456789 times dope!
Yeah we sang together there too since the weather is not being nice to us :S

Click on the picture to enlarge.
Group picture! Picture taken & edited by Miss Vincci (:
Lalalalalalala~

Compare myself before & after the outing *faints*

Yeehaaaa! And so, we conquered the beach!
Oh-sum outing :D
Big thanks to the organizer of course, Doreen & those humans who cooperate much (:

Sometimes people have to stop being so self-centered as it turns out you're the one who bare the social consequences (: *bish*

Till then, I'll update again soon!
With love,
Vincci.

Revived.

Oh hello hello, I've been very busy lately so my blog is dead, I know.

Sorry for the lack of updates, sorry for the poor management of blog posts, oops.

I'm really sorry. I felt guilty whatthesmurf

Anyway, I'm thankful enough for those who drop by this blog eventhough it's showing the same damn boring,longest, latest post ohemgeez.

Blame the blogger, oopsie.
Oh well, It's because my domain and hosting is under construction & blaaa blaaa blaaa.
#excuses.
Anyway, I've a lot to share, I'll update my blog often! *pinky promise*
With love, Vincci.