Birthday, I used to be excited for it,
longing for it, related everything to it.
I used to be happier on that day,
not because of presents received,
not because of wishes, I just don't know why.
But for this year, I'm not like that anymore.
I don't even want the day to come.
I feel even more unhappy, even more down.
Yet disappointed, hurting.
Anyhow, I wanted to say thanks to all my friend.
I was surprised =)
& sorry I was crying at that time.
Thanks for the cake. Thanks for all the sincere wishes.
Thanks for everything.
If only I can wish.. I wished to end my life now.
Can I?
I know... I shouldn't think this way.
But trust me, if you were me,
u wouldn't wanna face this miserable life,too.
I couldn't take this anymore.
I admit, I'm the best crier ever. You can't imagine it.
Yes. Cry is not a solution after all. So, I am THAT stupid.
I don't know how am I going to face all these.
But I still have to.
Well, I believe I can do it but takes time. Very long indeed.
This is the very first time I lost my hope towards exam.
Perhaps, it's not worth. I promise, I'll try my best.
Don't look down on me. Don't pity me.
If you think is that easy to overcome this situation.
Forgive me.
I'll appreciate my friends that care me always =D
I'm sorry & thank you.
