I'm coming home, coming home,
tell the world I'm coming home ;
let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday.......
Now, back to where I belong... - Diddy 'Coming Home'.
Three months of ups and downs.
Pretty much overwhelmed by stress, frustration, dilemmas & problems.
Tried again & again to adapt myself to the whole new environment.
Tried way too hard to get rid of those bad & absurd impressions.
And I thought of all memories of how I used to be.
Sadly,
I was not able to turn the frown upside down anymore.
I failed to be optimistic, no longer could be the happy go lucky me.
It was depressing deep within ;
so sorry that I teared almost every single day ;
because wasn't a moment where it was easy.
No doubt, those days totally, totally, devastated me.
At the breaking point, I don't feel myself, at all - the one who best known as the crazy and hyped Vincci for 7/24 back then.
Perhaps it all boils down to self-acceptance; if you don’t like yourself, who you are, where you are and what you have at this point of your life; anything that goes out of your favour, you find it very hard to be happy - Missy Cheerio
Somehow I hope, the nightmare is over, for now.
Like finally it's December, I've waited for this month way too long, too long.
I believe it's time for my eyes to rest and SMILE :) (:
All the yesterdays had come & gone and so I'm learning how to leave it where it is.
It's useless to whine around that how much I hate my life for the past three months, which seemingly three years to me oops :3
Memories :
in Kuching.
Perhaps I wished I could replay a million times ; I wished I had never come to this place at times.
Somehow I came to a point to realize that all these were just merely little stages in life, eventually they made me a stronger person indeed.
Just like the other obstacles ; If I were to reverse any of them, I wouldn't be the person I am right now.
And so, I've come to my senses that all these little memories will be significant to me.
Perhaps, they are all blessings in disguise :)
You are responsible for your life. You can’t keep blaming somebody else for your dysfunction. Life is really about moving on- Oprah Winfrey
Despite of the culture shock, I'll never forget how blessed, how lucky I am from time to time, even when nothing's right.
It had been a long run, and I'm thankful to those who made me smile all these whiles ; I'll never regret anything about it.
Besides, I'm really sorry to show my :( face most of the time when things go wrong. FML? Heehee.
Thank you people, specially to Daniel Sineros, Doreen Lee, Ivanna Ting, HuiHui, Charlton Vong, Jude Martin ,Angie Feng & others.
They made me realize that I'm not alone, I appreciate that very very much.
Yet, I'm glad to know that I'm not totally forgotten until now :')
I love you guys, I miss you guys too, xoxo.
Showing off my pretty injuries due to my stupidity in flipping & Girl's Generation tee.
No worries, my knee is okay now, I can fly again. Lol just kidding :P
All trials are not the reason to give up but a challenge to improve ourselves ; our pain is not an excuse to back out, but an inspiration to move on - winterhearts.com
Plus, Christmas is around the corner yeay! *screammmmmmmmmmm*
Looking forward for the month, I know it would be a great one :)
Loves.
P.S : Please don't be shocked if you see me since I'd got fatter, more pimples & blaaa T^T LOLOL SADDIEME.
