I'm really tired of all these.
Why problems keep coming to me non stop?
This question always appear in my mind but I just only convincing myself I can overcome all these.
I know life is up & down.
I know many others having their problems, too.
But please, let me complain, for a moment?

I'm already feel so damn frustrated with all my personal stuffs
& yet u 2 were like having cold war like nobody business!
Can't u both just be more considerate about your daughter here?!
Can u just count how many of my meals is just eating bread?
Seriously, even my weekend I am walking out alone to take my lunch or dinner.
I'm really sad u know??
Instead of being like that, why wouldn't u two just solve the prob ahead?
No matter how sad how hurt I am I always hide my feelings,
Acted happily & talked, laughed loudly, seems so cheerful huh?
I'm enough with everything.

And now, you left, I have to face everything alone,
yet I have to take the pain inside my heart day by day because of my stupidity,
I'm always alone right now,
I'm still crying like an idiot,
Every time I think about u, I'll cry.
U know what u did that hurts me like hell again & again.
I know you don't even care me at all but I did.
Though I don't want to but I can't resist it.
I know I'm just a failure.
Why am I being so stupid?

I always hope God can end my life,
why not just take my life away &
give it to another kind-hearted person who need it?
Why let so many human being in the world die because of sickness, because of hunger, because of accidents, but not me?
Silly questions always appear in my mind.
If there's a fire in my house, I'll have the courage & give up to run away?
Please forgive me for my negative thinking for a moment.
I know what am I doing.
I can't be so irresponsible & leave everything here.
I've tried my best, to be strong.
Trust me, I really do.

To love with all your heart... is to even risk losing it.

I just wanna have a peace christmas, can I?

[Champion]

[1st runner up]

[2nd runner up]

[3rd runner up]

Awwwwwwwwww...
Sadly & surprisingly, Katoon Network got champion T.T
Felt so disappointed as I expected ECX to win..
Saw lots of comments in Battleground (facebook),too.
Most of them pun ter-shock, including me myself..
By the way, Congratz to Katoon Network..
They're a strong team too =)
Just, personally I LOVE ELECOLDXHOT!
They are the Best!!!~
Somehow, Katoon Network do shines more in the final =D
They showed many different skill other than their usual funny moves..
But if based on the first episode to final, Elecoldxhot will win..
As u know, judges always stand up after their dance xD xD
Its okayyy =D
I just, not really likeyyy KN.. & I don't know why =/
I prefer ECX, Dancologist & Wakaka fever more..
This is called *pilih kasih* =P
Skipped skipped,
It's a great show~!
The battle of 3 groups is the best among all. *thumbs up*

ECX R0ckxxx~!
Chris, Dennis, Monkey, Leon, Gary & Billy u all did really really great !~

[The battle! Damn ganzheonggg]

[Katoon Network]

[Elecoldxhot!!!!!! Wooooots!]

[They are just SO COOOOOOL!]

Love dem lots ♥

I'm here with a random post that summarize this whole week of mine.

1. Holidays is bored. A fact of mine : I feel like going online when I'm bored but feels bored when I'm online.
2. Stayed over at Lemon Qian's house for 3 days 2 nights =)
3. Wanna apologize to her as I made her sleep extremelyyy extremelyyyy late in the 2 nights.
4. Outing with Auntie notti qian, auntie noobiiee wei wei, Mr. da bian Brian & Mr. fatty Deric on wed =D
5. Ohh.. I realized I really don't have fate with stupiak DaVe, as so far everytime I'm in Sakae he didn't even get to serve dis mummy T.T
6. Went sing K with them & ended up yawning non stop in accounts tuition *laughs*
7. Surprisingly, I didn't snap many photos this time =(
8. Aaron is being more & more bhb in front of me & 1 fine day I as his mother will slap him! *hohoho* jkjk
9. The Mr.HK FFK me this time & I don't know until when only we can make it =/
10. I don't know what am I crapping here actually. That's stupid.
11. Lastly, hopefully Elecoldxhot will win for the final tonight *v(^-^)v*

Pictures :

[Using Qian's Youcam]

[Don't shoot my lovely kei!!!]

[Yeahh..Love dis lots =) Me & Kei ; Qian & Googoo]

[Kissing scene.. 18SX !! xD ]

[It is scary with Qian's superb sound effect!]

[Lalala~ Noob one!]

[My love~~~ Snowing!! xD ]

[Awuuuuuuuuuuuuu!~]

[We're fair! ]

[Pretty ghost isn't it? Hahaha]

[Qian is scary in dis! xD & so My bear hide away one side!]

[Look at my kei!!! SO CUTEEEE!!!]

[Aliens! Wakakaka]

[Don record!! Pls respect!! xD xD]

[In Aeon JJ]

[Freaking nice~ using plastic bottles ehh~]

[We love dis lotsssss]

[I LOVE THIS! Yeahhh.. xD So I put it larger!]

[Playing with those spec thingy!~]

[Me & Qian & J.wei]

[Auntie wei wei!!!]

[We 3 being crazy over there!!]

In Sakae Sushi :

[2 of my favourite always in Sakae~]

[Lenglui No.1 xD xD]

[Lenglui No.2 xD xD Backlight too bright~~]

[Da bian.. "I don't know why qian calling him DA BIAN~" ]

[Me & Auntie wei wei~~~!]

[Group picture~~!]

[My belated birthday present~ Thanks to Deric~]

1. 被点到必填，不填代表你不尊重传给你的人和问卷。

2. 请老实回答每一个问题。

3. 不得擅自涂改题目。

4. 写完后请点8位小朋友，不可不点。

5. 点完后请通知那8位小朋友他被点到了。

6. 那8位小朋友填完问卷，必须把问卷寄回给你问卷的人。

幸福套餐 No.1

1）你的绰号： Vincci

2）年龄：16

3）生日：15/10

4）星座: Libra

5）兴趣: Alott.

6）专长 : Anything related to numbers? (Maths & bla~)

幸福套餐 No.2

1）你有没有喜欢的人？： Bla~

2）是否现在在交往？： Bla~

3）现在幸福不？： Bla~

4）如果上天给你勇气，最想做什么事情？：commit suicide

5）如果有天，你爱的人和你告白的话？： impossible

幸福套餐 No.3

1）点你的人是？：cHermaine muiix~

2）他是你的？："meii"
3）他的个性？：cheerful

4）认识他多久？：1 year ?

5）你觉得他怎样？：Nice person ^^

6）你想对他说什么？： Love uuu meii =D

幸福套餐 No.4

1）最爱的节目： Less

2）最爱的音乐： Nice one will do.

3）最爱的季节：Winter!!!

4）最爱的卡通：Shin chan

5）最爱的人：Bla~

6）最爱的颜色：粉红

7）最爱的国家：Japannnn!!

8）最爱的天气：雨 Rain~~

幸福套餐 No.5

1）如果上天给你三个愿望：

a. I want happiness.

b. Friends & family happy always

c. Good health for ---

2）你是很专一的人吗？：Yeap.

3）最深刻的回忆？：Alott

4）你是个很有信心的人吗？：Depends.
5）你很爱微笑吗？：Think so.

6）如果你要放弃你现在的生活，你愿意吗？：Maybe yes maybe no.

7）妄想什么样的生活？：Happiness

8）是否横刀夺爱才是爱？：Nope.

点人：

♥ A

♥ N

♥ Y

♥ O

♥ N

♥ E

♥ ~

♥ !

Finally, I've woke up from my dream.
That will be the sweet one I guess?
Thank you for everything. I appreciate it much, seriously.
It brought me lots of joy & happiness,
but yet, it was freaking hurtful. It really was.
It was just like stabbing my heart with a knife,isn't it?
You knew, the only one who's got enough of me to break my heart.
Making it bleed non stop for quite a period of time.
Once, I was really fed up why God want me to suffer like that.
That moment I admit it, I felt so damn meaningless.
Why must everything turns out like that?
Even that particular moment is the most un-favourable one as I can say.
Of my stupidity, I've been tortured for months.
Crying like a stupid idiot everyday. No doubt, I'm blinded.
I hated myself pretty much.
I hate you as well.
Anyway, who would believe that? Even myself doesn't.
However, I will not want to lead my life in this way.
It's really tiring. & so, I decided to let go.
I struggle a lot as it's superrr duperrr toughhh.
Yes. For me, two is always better than one =)
Right. I would try my very best to lead a new life without you.
No matter how, I believe, time can cure everything.
Maybe not now, but I still believe.
I hope for nothing, but.
I want you to live happily.
Though I know, you wouldn't even care me at all.
Till now, I didn't found any regretness within the wound.
Its okay.
I'll get through this pain,
no matter how long it takes,
even if it's eternity.


I LOVE YOU.
NO, not who you are now,
but the one who whom you used to be.