I'd actually walked under the rain for hours just now.
Seriously, I don't know which was my tears or raindrops laying on my face.
If only I have the courage, I'll choose to end my life but I don't know why.
Maybe just a narrow thinking of mine at this particular time.
As I really don't know how to take all these.
From time to time, I always reminding myself,
At least, I still have friends. At least, I get to eat, walk & etc etc.
There are much more humans are suffering in the world now.
Mine are just so tiny miny compared to theirs.
But why couldn't I control my tears.
I think my tears flow like just so meaningless because of a heartless ppl
& obviously I know it is worthless.
It couldn't help anything AT ALL as I can say.
So, tell me. How could I not hate myself so much?
Time flies. School is going to reopen soon.
I seriously had no idea how am I going to wake up every morning.
Last time with someone's help, even once I can't wake up I will have to face the music.
Plus the stress, tones of homeworks & everything.
Loneliness, I guess I have to force myself to fall in love with u. =/
I can't imagine how will it be for next year
I know my life will be more miserable then.
Eventhough it really is, for now.
I miss you..
I miss Booo. I really do.
